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Everything is gen unless otherwise noted.  Also, my summaries suck ass.  Also, for some spectacular fic by others, all my recs are RIGHT  HERE!

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This is a birthday present for lassiterfics , although I missed her real birthday by about an hour, because I had to eat ice cream and ride my bike and am about nine years-old so tuckered myself out and fell asleep by accident.  I only "met" the birthday girl like five seconds ago but we realized that in a parallel universe she'd probably be eating ice cream with me.  Unless she's lactose-intolerant, in which case, sorbet.

Anyway, she asked for Claire and Cas, and this of all things is what happened.  I am pretty WTF about it.  It's like, 95% dreadful angst and 5% what's-happening crack.   I feel like birthday fics should be really happy and have balloons, but this isn't/doesn't. 

Title: Restore
Wordcount: 939

:( Restore )



Hey y'all h/c-lovin' actor-whumpin' greenbeans --

embroiderama ,sinnerforhire , and jane_eyre  are hosting an RPF h/c meme over at spn_hurtcomfort , and I think it sounds like a great way to slough away some of those finale blues.  Feeling down at the prospect of four long months without our boys?  Take it out on Jensen!!! (even better... take it out on his legs!!! *is incurable*)

Title:  Home Safe
Genre: Gen (mentions of Dean/Lisa)
Wordcount: 2,425
Spoilers: For 5.22. 
Summary: When he had imagined things like this, Ben had thought the house would feel safer with someone like Dean in it... but now that Dean was here, it felt scarier, instead.
A/N: My obligatory coda to 5.22.  Short, and not very sweet.  Addresses one of the issues I had with the episode.

( Home Safe )



I don't even know.  I'm having TREMORS of fear.  The way I watch the show is, when an episode comes that pisses me off, I do the whole emotional-distance thing for a while, reading my flist reactions (especially [Poll #1563894]

Title: I'd Rather Play at Hug o' War
Genre: Gen... Dean & Castiel AU.
Wordcount: 844
Summary: The AU where Dean is the complit scholar who gets agitated over people's misinterpretations of Levi-Strauss and loves to smoke while proving his point so he can blow the smoke in their face. (in the immortal words of lassiterfics, because this was her idea and not mine.  There is, however, no Levi-Strauss.)
A/N: I am posting this ridiculous fic because I've been working all day on the fics I owe dania_rose  and a_starfish (and will continue working tirelessly until they are finished, because my tardiness has been inexcusable).  You may ask, Roque, why are you posting THIS thing instead of the other things, and I will tell you: because I'm not finished with the other things but want to post something to make myself feel better/more productive.  This fic was originally posted in the comments section for for a fic about Sam smoking!!! that lassiterfics  wrote (and which I am now recommending to you, because it's excellent).


✄( I'd Rather Play at Hug o' War )




The title is from this poem ↓ ↓ ↓ by Shel Silverstein (which for some reason REALLY freaked me out as a child) -- and if you click on the image, it will take you over to elizah_jane 's CuddleCommentficMeme!!! 

(Disclaimer: This fic wasn't written for that meme, as there are no actual hugs in the above story ↑ ↑ ↑, but I imagine that someday there will be.)

By *pants* ↑ ↑ ↑ I meant the thing you do when you're breathing hard from exertion and not, like, PANTS!  JEANS!  TROUSERS!

Just a little clarification.

ANYWAY omg the artist claims summaries are up and I am just wriggling from pure exhilaration.  Everything looks SPECTACULAR.  After I snatched up my glorious gem of gen, I read every other freakin' summary, all 301 of them!  That's because for some unfathomable reason I woke up at five o'clock this morning and could not for the life of me get back to sleep, which was LUCKY LUCKY LUCKY because I'd forgotten that today was the day for artists to claim prompts, and had I not been awake I would have missed it and maybe been stuck illustrating a schmoop-filled underage dub-con "non-AU" het RPS!!!  (no offense to anyone who writes/likes those!  to each her own). 

I was totally unprepared for the notification in my inbox and so I got really panicky and immediately claimed the fic I knew for a fact belonged to essenceofmeanin , because how could I go wrong with that girl, but then I was like, okay Roque, that is a) kind of cheating and b) totally misses the point of the surprise-who's-this-writer-oh-man-you-have-no-idea fun of the Big Bang.  So I read through all the gen summaries more carefully and with deep breaths and eventually selected this one:

Title: Hover Through the Fog and Filthy Air
Rating: R
Summary:
AU after “Lucifer Rising.” 2013 – The war with demons ended three years ago with Lucifer’s death. Sam and Dean, now living in Portland, Oregon, on the Portland State University campus, are learning how to live after the violence of a war that destroyed part of the country and left both of them weary and broken. As they decide to start hunting again, a friend tells them about a potential case – strange human-shaped shadows are attacking people at night. In the small town of Government Camp, lost in the mountains, they are met with the locals' hostility, and secrets and lies linked with a fire that happened just after the war. After their encounter with a mysterious man who claims he used to be a hunter, they find out that what is happening now is the consequence of something darker and uglier than they could imagine.
Warnings: Hints of background pairings (OMC/OFC, OFC/OFC); language, mentions of a suicide attempt, PTSD flashbacks, disturbing imagery.

MINE.  Guys I get so possessive about fanfic I can't even tell you.  You all think you're safe, but every story you've ever written for one of my prompts is immediately filed into my brain as MINE, and I get massive amounts of possessive glee each time I read it. 

Anyway -- I don't know how this works, if the author sees this if she/he is allowed to come forth -- I don't think so -- but I'm just saying, Dear Author, if you're out there, I bet you're probably skeptical because why the hell am I trying to make art, but I promise to be fanatically devoted to you and your story because your story is now MINE and I am tender towards literary posessions.  Also I can double as a grammar-checker and isn't that awesome!

(I really want to know who this story belongs to right the heck now, the suspense is wreaking havoc on my nerves.  I have been awake for 5 hours and had three cups of coffee and am packing away my possessions into lots of cardboard boxes because I'm leaving in 20 days awelkfaoasjdfoij and how did it come to pass that I own so very many boots.)

Title: Below Skyscrapers (4 parts)
Author: To Be Revealed
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: R
Spoilers: References to events up through 5.03, but AU
Word Count: 32,400
Summary: "Castiel, this is Detective Winchester," Bobby's saying, voice rough and real. It's a distraction, although a brief one, the angel glancing at him before studying Dean again with that same silent intensity. "He'll be on the Circle Murders too."

I am psyched to find out who the author was, because this is really a tour de force.  The AU universe is brilliantly constructed and the writing is spectacular.  The story itself is well-paced and well-plotted, endlessly intriguing, and bears enough resemblance to events in SPN to be familiar, but has been twisted enough that everything was still a surprise.  A must-read if you like Dean/Castiel.

BELOW SKYSCRAPERS

Hello dearhearts,

FYI:  As guest-reccer I have 2 gen recs, 1 Sam/Dean and 1 gen art rec up right here at sawedoff_recs , to the theme of "power play." 

Okay real words now.

( Spoilers for 5.18 )